Giving up

Have you ever had that moment when you just feel like giving up? 

I'm constantly told that what I am doing is a waste if time. That I should just work and get money. But I don't want to be like everyone else. Staying in a job that I don't like, that is physically and mentally stressful, and that requires way more patience that I have now a days. At this point I just feel like giving up. Every time I try I get shot down somehow. It usually is one of my parents or a person I'm really close to.

So why continue with a goal I'll never accomplish. I'll never get the chance to actually make a difference in this fucked up world, simply because there's always going to be someone pulling me back. Not allowing me to find my peace with the world. 

Here I just sit. Debating. Should I just drop all my classes and get my full time position back or should I not give a crap and continue having financial issues with the 2 part time job I have. Stress has always been a part of my life. Ever since the age of 10. Which is the age I started working for my own money in order to buy what I wanted, and not have to rely on others to buy it for me. 

Who are we...

I felt like expressing what I see. Which is too many children going through the same situation. One whom I'm very close too, others from friends and strangers.
(Caution!  Topics may change rapidly. I type in a rant mode)

Photographed by Geraldine Rocha

No one really thinks of the child. It's always about how the child doesn't need the other parent in their life; but they do. Yes, you can provide lots of love and even some extra for the absence of the other parent, but it doesn't work that way.  It's selfish to think that way, because in the end the child ends up hating both parents. One for not being there, and the other one for preventing the other parent from seeing them. Cuz honestly that's how I feel about my parents. This coming from a child who barely knows her own father, even though she now lives with him.

Pretty much, I've been there done that. It's not a good feeling as you grow up. Resentment will always be present. And even though I may seem I'm okay with them, I'll never really fully trust them.

I know I'm not the only one that has gone through it. But I thought I should share my thought of this epidemic. Marriages will never get to 50 anymore. There's so many kids from one person with different people, that people have to get tested to see if they are related or not. People are just living stupidly they are willing to kill one another for some shoes or a five dollars.

I don't know I give up on people...

What our your thought about the children? Or parents? Or what ever the hell I talk about lol sorry I get worked up when I rant.